Gone too long

I know, it's been a while. A long while. For the longest time I felt as though I really had nothing of value to say. Funny how a low time in your life can cause you to think. Yes, a low point. I may still be in that low point, I'm not real sure as of yet. Too many things have happened in the past 18 months and I am still digesting and processing the details. I'm sure that I'll share as I go, but that too, remains to be seen.

But for now, I'm back. It actually feels really good to just sit here and type out my thoughts. I don't know if anyone else will read them but me, but that's okay too. Part of the reason for my absence was that I felt that I was putting myself out there too much, so I had that going for me as well as feeling as though I had nothing to say. And that I was being judged. I'm not sure by who, but I still felt that way.

Feelings have a way of making you second guess everything; your family, your job, your faith and even God's plan.

I have come to a couple of conclusions at this juncture of my life. I will continue to work to be a better me, the one that Christ has called me to be. I will continue to be true to myself and to who I am at this moment in time, and I will not be afraid of being criticized for putting myself out there. Jesus calls each of us to be a part of the body of Christ. Each of us has a different and unique role, that only we can fill. I have a better understanding of that now. Do I totally get it? No. I probably never will. But I will continue to try. I may fail, but I will get back up. I will share what is on my mind and in my heart. If it helps you or someone you know, than great. If not, then hey, that's OK too...just know that there is someone here for you to relate to when you are having one of those days.


~Peace & Blessings~
Jen

A bit of weariness...

on this Wednesday. My mind has been rather unsettled this week. God gave me a strong conviction this past weekend to make a real change in my life. Time to clean house, so to speak, and now is the time. So with that said, I have been in one way grieving and have been in prayer. Not that I have to give things up or change things, but rather it's time to improve on my relationship with Christ & release the poisons that still seem to have a stronghold on me. No one said change was easy, but I know that I can overcome.

So I have put my 2 weeks notice in at the resteraunt that I have been working at part time for the past year. Working p/t was neccessary at the time, but I know that my time has ended there. I need to trust God for the provision of that little bit of extra money needed. I know that He will provide for all our needs.

So that's one area that I am working on. The next is my health. I have been really run down lately. I know that I have not been eating right & I know that I am not drinking enough water, or excercising like I need to. That is also about to change. I am excited about the changes I am getting ready to make in the next week & I am sure that I will feel better in no time.

Lastly I have been convicted to read more scripture. To really get to know God's heart & His will. I know that I have been slack in the area of reading and praying. I want nothing more than to be close to Jesus & know the peace that only He can give me. I just want to be used to glorify Him in all areas of my life. I know that it's much harder than I'd like it to be, but then again nothing good and right is ever easy.

So that is where I'm at right now in my life. I started this blog on Wednesday & I'm finishing it up on Thursday. I wanted to just share what God is doing in my life & I pray that it may help you too.


~Peace & Blessings~
Jen