Each step of life is a journey that you choose to walk.

Each moment of life is another line, sentence, paragraph and chapter of the book called your life.

Enjoy all that life has to offer, good friends, good food, good coffee and as always wisdom and a good laugh.


15 July 2010

What do you do...

when you feel like you've hit rock bottom? That's where I am at this moment & I have to ask myself if it's worth the pain. I keep trying to do the right things for my family, but then it seems to unravel at the seems when I least expect it. Is it an attack or just stupity on my behalf that keeps causing me to go around the mountain? I'm not real sure, but I know I'm tired & I don't want to fight anymore when it comes to this battle. The biggest issue is of course, money. It seems to elude me at every corner. I know that money is not suppose to be as important as I sometimes make it, but we all need money to fufill basic needs & on occasion those wants that we have as well. It's a balancing act that I seem to be failing at. Miserably.

I have to say this, though, to be lacking in funds for basic needs keeps me completley dependant upon God. I have to look to Him. He supplies all my needs & some of my wants too, but I really think that we must realize that we may have it all, but without God present, we really do not have anything. Maybe that is the lesson in which I need to learn to get over this mountain...but then again, I thought I already learned this lesson. So what is it? Maybe I'm just not disciplined enough to save like I need to. That could be, but I'm not sure.

We all struggle, I know this, but I really needed to get this off my mind so I can concentrate on listening to God for the answer. When I am consumed with a thought it tends to take all my mind & then I can't hear the still small quiet whisper of God. I know that this too shall pass, but in the moment, I'm a bit overwhelmed. OK. That's all.

~Peace & Blessings~

1 comment:

  1. We spent to years in that tug-o-war with money. I totally understand. We still go round that mountain too. I like to think that with every pass, we reflect him just a little more. Tread that path girl, you're a go getter. I have faith in you that you can do what God has in store for you.