Desires

I failed at keeping my schedule this week. Why am I not disciplined enough to stay on track?

I have this desire to wake up around 6am so that I can have quiet time with God, read my Bible and Pray before getting the kids up and ready for school, but instead it's my daughter waking me in the morning to tell me it's time to get up.

I have this desire to lose 20 or so pounds and work out everyday, but instead I get home and feel wiped out, tired and with too many other things to do so before I know it, it's time to get the kids from school and *poof*, out of time.

I have this desire to read everyday, but instead I find myself in front of the television watching a show that I don't really even care about, or worse I find a show I love and become obsessed with it.

I have this desire to go back to school and learn more than what I know, but I find myself doing the same old same old and have not finished up with registration.

My desires...are they God's desires? I'm sure that He would want me to spend more time with Him. I'm sure He wants me to be healthier. I'm sure he wants me to be a good steward of my time.

Why do I struggle with what I know I should do or even what I want to do? I would think that if there is something that I want to do, that I should be able to do it, but no. There is a battle...a battle between doing what I know is right and what I actually do.

Paul says it best. Galatians 5:17, "For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want."

That is how I feel most of the time, like I am fighting between what my spirit needs to do and what my flesh wants to do.  So I will try again this week, no, I will try today to turn my desires into discipline.

~Peace & Blessings~
Jen

3 months...

has gone by already? Sometimes I believe that the days just go by way too fast. I remember as a child I thought that the days just DRAGGED on and on and on. Not anymore. So since I have failed at keeping a weekly blog update, I suppose I should start fresh.

But first a recap -

AUG: School started, a wedding, a birthday and of course...humid and hot (not bad for a recap)

SEP: Fall Concert, a birthday and of course...football season (my team is 0-4 {a perfect record})

OCT: Half way through and it's been a tough one.

Over the past few weeks a lot of "changes" have taken place in my "little world"

One of my dear friends is being sent home, to South Africa, because of delay in work visa paperwork. Her family has been in the country for over 14 years, and now...they are being forced to leave. We have been praying for God's Will to seen and to be honest, it has, just not the way any of us thought. We were thinking of buying her house, but God said NO. Then they thought they'd have to short sale, God said NO. Instead God said - here is a person that needs to rent your house for about 9 months and oh by the way, you now have a house in South Africa to rent for about 9 months, and I'm still working on your paperwork and you will have to TRUST me. You husband's company will allow him to continue working while in South Africa. I'd say that is a much better plan because now I'm praying that she and her family will return to us again.

Remember the car that God gave us? Well...it has finally died! YUP...a goner...RIP. Praise God, we had enough money and resources to put a good size down payment on a newer vehicle! I now have AC!! Woot-Woot. I don't much care for the car payment, but it is only for a short time and after four plus years of living in bankruptcy....I'll take it! God is so good...to allow us to have a running car up until we could afford to buy another one. There were so many close calls, but I see His provision.

This past week...my neighbor 2 houses down...lost their home to a house fire. Everything...GONE! It was so surreal to see their house burn down. My heart just broke. Praise God no one was in the home. All three kids were at the sitters. I have seen God's people move to help her out with clothes and food. Others are helping her to find a new place to live and others said they have furnishings to help her start over. AMAZING! My youngest son has been praying, reading his Bible and crying over this situation, because the house...was his friends house. I love that my son has a heart for others who are hurting, and that he has been praying and reading his Bible, but it does break my heart to see him so sad.

My final thought...I have been praying about what to share with you on a regular basis, and God has not made that too clear as of yet. I'll be sure to let you know as soon as He does.

 Well there you have it a wrap up of what is going on in my life. Maybe you can relate to some of this or maybe you can join me in praying for each of these situations. Either way. Thanks for reading.

~Peace & Blessings~
Jen